Five months after their split, Kristin Cavallari is opening up on her divorce from Jay Cutler.
While the split announcement was shocking to many, the pair had been struggling with their marriage for years. She told People magazine, “I always thought it was interesting when people would refer to us as 'couple goals.’ I was like, 'If you guys only knew.'"
“It didn't happen overnight," Cavallari emphasized of their separation. "We tried really, really hard for years and years. It was the hardest decision I've ever made."
Kristin and Jay did their best to hide their troubles until they couldn’t anymore during the final season of their show “Very Cavallari.” She shared, “We definitely kept a lot of stuff private. Producers saw stuff, but they didn't put it in the show — which is good, because I don't want my kids to ever [see that]."
As for what went wrong in their 10-year relationship, Kristin revealed, “Every relationship has their stuff. I met Jay when I was 23. I was a baby. Jay and I had so much love for each other, but we grew up.”
She added, “When you work at something for so many years and nothing's changing, I think you have to just make a decision. We all want to be happy."
The two are keeping it amicable while co-parenting their kids Camden, 8, Jaxon, 6, and Saylor, 4. She noted, “I still care so much about him and talk to him almost every day. We have three kids together. He's going to be in my life forever."
Kristin is “relieved” that “Very Cavallari” is ending after three seasons. She explained, “My kids are the most important thing to me. What's best for them? Probably not doing a reality show, having to talk about divorcing their dad."
Nowadays, Kristin is focused on self-care, saying, “I've been putting everybody else first. I'm going to focus on me for a minute, look inward and figure out what I ultimately want out of life."
Cavallari, who said she is “excited about the future,” has no regrets about pulling the plug on her marriage. She said, "I'm proud for making this decision. It wore at me every single day for years. I feel like my whole world is opening up now because of it, and I'm just feeling the best I've felt in a really long time.”
In April, Kristin and Jay announced they were getting a divorce. In a statement on Instagram, she wrote, “We have nothing but love and respect for one another and are deeply grateful for the years shared, memories made, and the children we are so proud of. This is just the situation of two people growing apart. We ask everyone to respect our privacy as we navigate this difficult time within our family."