A week after his death, Nick Cordero has been laid to rest.
Cordero’s wife Amanda Kloots shared details of his memorial service on Instagram. “I said, ‘Nick would have wanted this to be a celebration. Let’s try to laugh, share great stories and sing for him and to his memory. He would have loved it. It was beautiful and perfect. His spirit was definitely there.”
The song “I’m Here” from the Broadway show “The Color Purple” played a special part in the ceremony. Kloots shared, “Nick and I saw this show on Broadway years ago and we left the theater in tears, speechless. As it was being played last night, the lyrics in the second half of the song hit me hard.”
“Truly, I am scared. Scared of my new normal, of the pain, the loss and being strong enough to get through it. But, I know Nick is up above routing for me, believing in me and hoping for me,” Kloots admitted. “He wants me to LIVE this new life and he wants me to be the best version of myself for our son. I promised him in the hospital that I would try to do that. So, when I heard these lyrics yesterday I thought, ‘Ok. When I’m doubting if I can get through this, I’m playing this song. It will be my motto.’”
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We had a small memorial yesterday with close family and friends. I said, “Nick would have wanted this to be a celebration. Let’s try to laugh, share great stories and sing for him and to his memory.” He would have loved it. It was beautiful and perfect. His spirit was definitely there. We listened to the song, I’m Here, from The Color Purple. Nick and I saw this show on Broadway years ago and we left the theater in tears, speechless. As it was being played last night the lyrics in the second half of the song hit me hard. Truly, I am scared. Scared of my new normal, of the pain, the loss and being strong enough to get through it. But, I know Nick is up above routing for me, believing in me and hoping for me. He wants me to LIVE this new life and he wants me to be the best version of myself for our son. I promised him in the hospital that I would try to do that. So, when I heard these lyrics yesterday I thought, “Ok. When I’m doubting if I can get through this, I’m playing this song. It will be my motto.” This is a long journey ahead and a down road I never thought I’d be on. No one can tell me how to do it, I have to do it. I may do things right, I may do them wrong. There isn’t a perfect way. One day, one step at a time. I have faith that God is leading the way and that Nick is our angel. In case you don’t know this song and are also in need of a motto, here are the lyrics. Do yourself a favor by listening to @cynthiaerivo sing it. “I'm gonna take a deep breath. Gonna hold my head up. Gonna put my shoulders back, And look you straight in the eye. I'm gonna flirt with somebody When they walk by. I'm gonna sing out . . . Sing out. I believe I have inside of me Everything that I need to live a bountiful life. With all the love alive in me I'll stand as tall as the tallest tree. And i'm Thankful for everyday that i'm given, Both the easy and hard ones i'm livin'. But most of all I'm thankful for Loving who I really am. I'm beautiful. Yes, I’m beautiful, And I’m here.”
While Kloots “never thought” this would part of her journey in life, she noted that she would take it “one day, one step at a time.”
Before ending her post with lyrics from “I’m Here,” she emphasized, “I have faith that God is leading the way and that Nick is our angel.”
After spending more than three months in the hospital, Cordero died of complications from COVID-19 at the age of 41. Kloots confirmed his death, writing on Instagram, “God has another angel in heaven now. My darling husband passed away this morning. He was surrounded in love by his family, singing and praying as he gently left this earth."
"I am in disbelief and hurting everywhere. My heart is broken as I cannot imagine our lives without him. Nick was such a bright light. He was everyone’s friend, loved to listen, help and especially talk. He was an incredible actor and musician. He loved his family and loved being a father and husband. Elvis and I will miss him in everything we do, everyday,” Amanda added.
Kloots had kept supporters abreast of his progress via her Instagram account. Most recently, she had opened up to Gayle King on “CBS This Morning,” saying, "In a perfect world — because we are hoping for a perfect world — our ultimate, ultimate goal would be to get him to be a candidate for a double-lung transplant. We think that that is most likely the possibility, 99% chance that he would be needing that in order to live the kind of life that I know my husband would want to live. That is a long road away."
As far as what he understood toward the end, she said, “That is really hard to try to gauge, unfortunately. We have told him a blanket statement of kind of what has happened just because we don’t know what he understands just yet.” She confirmed she had told him that his leg had been amputated, adding, “I told him there are amazing prosthetics and I told him I have been talking to other amputees and to try to give him encouragement.”
Kloots was told more than once he wouldn’t survive, but the Broadway star continued to fight far longer than experts expected.
After his death, Kloots unlocked Cordero’s phone and found some heartwarming photos and videos.
Along with 832 text messages, there were sweet photos of Nick with their son Elvis and of the family enjoying a picnic. Another photo has Nick showing off their first car, a Volvo, in February.
She found videos he made of himself singing birthday messages for friends, and on the street with their dog.
Amanda also shared a video message with fans, saying, “I was recovering a lot of photos, and I saw text messages from so many people from April til now. It has been a day of reflection, a day of understanding, but Nick was such a beautiful man, I kept saying that to him at the hospital. ‘You are such a beautiful man, I love you so much and I still do and I will always.’”