Three months after he contracted COVID-19, Nick Cordero is still fighting for his life.
Cordero’s wife Amanda Kloots is doing her best to stay positive, but says some days are more difficult than others. On Monday, she shared, “I had a hard day today. I cried all day basically. I got mad today, too. I got mad at God. I'm praying and I have people all over the world praying. I said to my mom and dad, 'Why can't He throw us a bone? I'm sorry but I'm mad at him right now.'"
While she “felt bad” about her “outburst,” Kloots emphasized, “It needed to come out.”
“Believing in God doesn't mean you can't question what is happening. Why things happen. Why my prayers aren't being answered in my time," Kloots went on. "I was taught that it is OK to question things in life. I think in being brave enough to say it out loud actually acknowledges the fear that you have deep down inside you. And, of course, I have it. It's impossible not [to.]"
Amanda revealed that she “broke big time today; at home, at the hospital in front of the doctors and while sitting next to Nick.”
Admitting she “couldn’t keep it together,” Kloots said, “I acknowledge the day I had. It's OK. It's OK to cry, to get mad and say it's not fair. I will keep my faith and keep asking for miracles. I will put my armor back on and walk taller tomorrow. I will do the best I can do and make myself as big as I can. This, these 89 days now, have been tough. I broke today. I'll be back tomorrow. God doesn't expect me to be perfect. He doesn't expect anyone [to]."
A few days ago, Amanda shared that Nick was “profoundly weak” but “relatively stable” in the hospital.
After months in the hospital, Kloots is finally able to visit Cordero. She explained, “He interacts with his eyes, answering questions by looking up for yes and down for no. When he is alert he can also move his jaw. I have been doing passive physical therapy on him to help in any way I can to get him stronger, to keep his joints moving and engage his muscles. He cannot move his body yet. He has had some minor blood infections that are causing little blood pressure issues although those are under control. His vent settings are getting better and his numbers are trending in a better direction.”
Nick was admitted in late March with COVID-19 and has suffered many setbacks, including a medically induced coma, amputated leg, and lung infections.