Actor and WWE superstar John Cena is opening up about life about his broken engagement with Nikki Bella.
On Monday morning, Cena told “Today’s” Kathie Lee Gifford and Hoda Kotb, “It’s up and it’s down. I’ve always been honest with you guys, I also don’t want to ruin the viewers’ morning by giving them a bowl of sadness soup. It’s been up and it’s been down. It’s been incredibly reflective, which is amazing, but it’s very difficult. I had my heart broken out of nowhere — well, for me it was out of nowhere. And anyone who has experienced that knows that it comes with a series of bad feelings. But I’ve looked at myself every day and I’ve tried to evaluate myself and the woman that I love.”
Despite their split, Cena professed his love for Bella, saying, “I still love Nicole, I still would love to marry Nicole, I still would love to have a family with Nicole. There was an unfortunate set of circumstances where our relationship ended.”
John and Nikki were supposed to be married on May 5, but she called it off only weeks before. He said, “I was supposed to be married and have a honeymoon over these two weeks. I am in my house alone surrounded by these emotionally strong memories. And every day from six to nine I get out of the house and talk to strangers as social interaction.”
John emphasized, “I don’t want anybody else. I love Nicole and I’m really trying to support her in her trying to find whatever it is she wants that made this fall apart in the first place.”
Though rumors were swirling that they weren’t seeing eye-to-eye on kids and marriage. Cena told Hoda that he’s a different man from “five years ago,” adding, “I’m willing to go back on all of these things that I say, and a lot of them I would hang onto just out of stubbornness. ‘I won’t have kids,’ and it took a very strong look in the mirror for me to be like, ‘Why? This person is my number one and it’s something that’s very valuable to her. Of course we can do this, and I think it would be wonderful.'”
Speaking from the heart, he went on to say, “I want to be with her. I want to make her my wife. I want to be the father of her children. I just want us to work.”
Nikki mentioned the split last week, saying in a YouTube video, “Staying at Brie’s because you all know why.”