Mel B Is ‘Brutally Honest’ About Her ‘Painful’ Past

“Extra's” Terri Seymour sat down with Mel for a candid conversation about her tough past, including drug use and a suicide attempt.

Of her book, Mel said, “It's painful, but it's also very healing. It feels good but sad at the same time.”

When did she know things were bad at home? Mel answered, “In an abusive relationship, you don't realize it's that bad until it's too late. These abusers are very clever at making you feel bad one day and a queen the next day, and because I worked so much on TV that was like my savior because when I was at work he couldn't get to me or call me or be right beside me bothering me, so it was when I went home I had to take a breath and I didn't know what I was going to face that night."

In the book, Mel admits she did cocaine to help her get going in the morning, noting that she didn't need drugs at work. She said, “Yeah, it was a hamster wheel of a life. You've been taken out of your body almost.”

“It's not like I did coke every day or drank every day, but I did have coping skills that were leading to that more than anything,” Mel emphasized.

The 43-year-old claimed that the alleged abuse by her then husband got so bad she tried to end her life in 2014 by taking 200 pills. She reflected, “I just didn't want to be there anymore… I just didn't know any other way out.”

She added, “Well, I tried to leave many times, then there was the whole idea of the, 'No one is gonna believe me,' and then there were all these video tapes and I didn't know if they were gonna get leaked — I didn't know what was going to happen.”

Belafonte allegedly tried to blackmail her with their X-rated home videos, an accusation he calls a "lie." In court documents last year, Stephen “vehemently” denied her physical abuse allegations, saying they are “outrageous” and “unfounded.”