Singer Mariah Carey is opening up about her secret battle with bipolar disorder!
When she diagnosed in 2001, she “didn't want to believe it.”
After “the hardest couple of years,” Carey finally decided to ask for help. She told People magazine, “Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me. It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn't do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music.”
To help her live with the disorder, Carey is now taking medication and undergoing therapy. She revealed, “I'm actually taking medication that seems to be pretty good. It's not making me feel too tired or sluggish or anything like that. Finding the proper balance is what is most important.”
“For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder,” Carey continued. “But it wasn't normal insomnia and I wasn't lying awake counting sheep. I was working and working and working … I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania. Eventually I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad — even guilty that I wasn't doing what I needed to be doing for my career.”
Despite her struggles, Carey is in a “really good place right now” and comfortable enough to talk about the disorder. She said, “I'm hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.”