It is clear that Vanessa is doing her best to “pull it together” for her family. A source recently told People magazine, “She is very, very aware that she is not the only person who is mourning — she's got three little girls who have lost their father and their sister. They're mourning too. Everyone is in pain, and Vanessa understands it enough to know that she has to be there for them and available to them.”
“She knows that they can't lose their mother in addition to their father, and she's determined not to let that happen,” the insider added. “They will get through this as a family.”
Along with being “heartbroken,” Vanessa is reportedly “relying on faith.” The source revealed, “She's praying a lot, spending time just reflecting and meditating. She's got a strong center, a strong faith. And she knows that Kobe did too. That comforts her.”
A few weeks ago, Vanessa poured her heart out onstage while remembering Kobe and Gianna at their public memorial. Struggling to hold back tears, Vanessa mentioned all the milestones they would miss, saying, “We will not see Gigi go to high school... we didn't get a chance to teach her how to drive a car… I won't be able to tell her how gorgeous she looks on her wedding day… I can't imagine life without her.”
As for her husband of nearly 19 years, Vanessa said, “He was my sweet husband and the father of my beautiful children... He was my everything… I was his first girlfriend, his first love… his confidant, his protector... We balanced each other... He was truly the romantic one in our relationship… he planned anniversary trips, he even handmade my gifts.”
Kobe and Vanessa planned to renew their vows and hoped to “be the fun grandparents” someday.
Vanessa said Kobe also hoped daughter Natalia would take over his business, and that their younger girls, Bianka and Capri, would pursue basketball so he could spend as much time with them as he did with Gigi. She told the crowd, “I want my girls to remember what kind of man he was.”
A tearful Vanessa ended her speech, saying, “God knew [Kobe and Gianna] couldn't be on this Earth without each other… Babe, you take care of our Gigi… May you both rest in peace.”