Actor Kristoff St. John's ex-wife Mia St. John is still processing his untimely death.
“Extra” spoke with Mia, who opened up about Kristoff’s death and how she is doing today.
Mia admitted, “I have okay days, I have really bad days, I’m just waiting to get to the part where I’m having good days. It’s difficult 'cause it’s still early.”
She added, “I’m so used to having Kristoff as my rock… he was always just there for me.”
Mia also reflected on the last call she had with him before he died, revealing, “Even though we talked every day, this call was a very different call. He kept saying he wanted to die, but he said in a different way this time that really struck me. He tells me to hang on one second, that Julian’s at the door, and I just started screaming 'No!'”
Kristoff and Mia’s son Julian died by suicide at age 24 on Nov. 23, 2014, following a lifelong battle with mental illness. She said about Kristoff, “He was so tortured since our son passed, he felt so much guilt… he felt like he failed his son.”
Days before Kristoff's death, he was being treated for suicidal thoughts. She said that he was released from treatment too soon. “They were supposed to keep him on a 5150, which is a 14-day hold, and they didn’t, he was let go on the fourth day. I think it all boils down to education – staff needs to be educated, and there needs to be oversight and accountability.”
Mia vowed to advocate for mental illness and an increase in education about it. “I am determined to keep talking about mental illness, the importance of mental health, and how we have to change things, we need reform, and I am not going to stop.”
Mia is dealing with her own issues, and said the outpouring of support from fans is keeping her going. She shared, “I ended up in the hospital after Kristoff passed on a 5150… with the outpouring of support, I felt like I can do this, and I need to do this.”
Getting emotional, Mia explained she has to do it for Kristoff and her late son. “I just have to, I know they are on the other side rooting for me and counting on me to do this.”
Following Kristoff’s death, Mia lost her sobriety after 30 years. She said, “I’m getting there… I am working on it. All I can do is one day at a time.”