Luis D. Ortiz, a former star of "Million Dollar Listing: New York," opened up on his Instagram page Saturday, letting fans know he has been fighting a real battle with depression — even having suicidal thoughts.
He told fans he was coming forward as a direct result of the suicides of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain.
"For the past year I have been struggling with depression and during the last three months all I can think of — day and night — is putting an end to it all," he wrote. "What makes sense intellectually doesn't seem to internalize which makes understanding how selfish this would be for the people that love me almost impossible to see. In fact, I argue that it is selfish of them to let me live in a place I have convinced myself I no longer want to be a part of."
He went on to express that through "the genuine love and care of a few good friends and family who have consistently fought and continue to fight hard to engrave in me the perspectives they know I have the ability to understand in order to come back to the old full-of-light self I truly loved, respected and admired and they will never give up on, I am still here."
He urged people to engage in "sharing and reaching out when we are not feeling ourselves," and to not "be afraid of your truth. Be proud of it."
He signed off with a heart emoji.
Ortiz announced he was leaving "Million Dollar Listing: New York" at the end of the 2016 season.