In a HappilyEvaAfter.com blog post in which she admitted she is "in an emotionally bad place," Eva Amurri Martino, the daughter of Susan Sarandon, shared the terrifying news that her baby son Major's night nurse fell asleep while holding him and dropped him.
Major survived, but suffered a fractured skull and bleeding on the brain.
She wrote that she and her husband, Kyle Martino, were awakened by the sound of their son's skull cracking, describing his "hysterical piercing screams."
People magazine reports Eva wrote that Major was "transported by ambulance to Yale Medical Center where I spent two harrowing days with him to receive emergency care and further testing. To say these were the most traumatic and anxious two days of my life is an understatement.”
While she is relieved to report her son is "FINE. Completely fine," and is "healing well, hitting milestones, cooing, smiling, and generally showing us that he is and will be ok," she also confessed to harboring a crippling feeling of guilt — and she fears she may be slipping into depression.
Amurri Martino wrote, "And even though I finally made peace with the fact that this freak accident could not have been avoided by me, it has continued to effect me to my core and in all aspects of my daily life."
Going forward, she admitted it is hard for her to let anyone else hold Major, and that the accident has made her susceptible to panic attacks, killed her appetite and has led her to feel "not okay."
She fears she may be dealing with PTSD and/or postpartum depression, but she also wrote that she is hopeful things improve in 2017. “With open arms, I welcome 2017 as the year I learn to forgive a little deeper, to let go a little more easily, to accept some things I cannot change, and to love myself a lot more unconditionally."