On Tuesday’s episode of “True Tori,” a friend asks the Dean, “Why did you do what you did?”
McDermott responds, “I didn’t think I would get caught.”
He went on to explain, “I was drinking and using drugs, I was not dealing with things that happened to me in the past. It isn’t like I was looking for sex or I was horny. T and I… our relationship, our sex life is solid.”
The father of five -- who calls his alter ego 'Deano' -- blames his addictions.
“I have a brain that wants to kill me. I have a brain that wants me dead. That is how the alcoholic mind works and thinks, ‘Have a couple cocktails, do a couple lines, shut it down after three lines. Yeah you can do that, you can do that Dean.’ Cut to the sun rising."
When his buddy asked how Dean can even begin to fight that, McDermott says, “By hitting your bottom,” adding that he knows he’s on the verge of losing everything.